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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 02:19

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

But ive been too sick for many years..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I said to her

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

How should one respond to compliments such as "You are so special" and "I'm lucky to have met you" from a guy?

What did i know ?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

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I waited trembling.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

How likely is it to make a living out of being a window cleaner in a Nordic country?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Who then, do I blame.?

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I will be 64.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I was scared of men, in general

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But it wasn’t much.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He knew the spot.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

We all went to grammer schools

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I think the readers, may guess!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He resisted the act ,that day.

My life is so biszare .

But, we were locked up after school.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I couldn’t, believe it.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

She married twice! .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I was seconnd youngest,

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Put me off passion for life!!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My family never makes their pension either.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I was very sick at this time too.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I have no regrets .

When she asked me how she looked .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Would this be the day?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

As i do to all so called friends.?

This is soul school!.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

So whats the point in blame.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

All the time i was locked up.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

She was in good health!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

We were not on the streets..

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Ive learnt so much.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

It was going to be , some day.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

She wouldn,t have been !

One cannot live in the past .

I was 9 years of age.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Was to survive, this bastard.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She loved him until the end.

I write beautiful poetry .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She found it foreign!.

Im still living with it.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Comes on , in middle age.

I don,t even have a pension.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

So, i spoilt her more .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Why did i forgive my father ?

And i lived it daily.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!